I cannot wake up in the morning. I am not a morning person. I do not like mornings. I have serious F.O.M.O. (fear of missing out) but that still will only get me there some of the time.
I am really looking forward to EMDR therapy; really starting it. That stands for eye-movement desensitization and reprocessing. This will reduce the effects of PTSD.
My life has been turned into acronyms.
I’m going to chant about that when I go meet with my SGI friends 😉
Anyway, I am hoping to release and turn around the old, bad memories of mornings and get to a place where I can wake up with a refreshed spirit and greet the day! I would like to emulate my mentor, SGI President Daisaku Ikeda. This man encourages everyone he meets, and your can feel good conviction in every word. I would like to have the discipline to wake up for an 8am toso (chanting for an hour). But at the moment, the sound of 8am repels me completely.
I have a strong faith in God. Now I need a strong trust in God. And, maybe more importantly, in myself.
That, or I will just never be a morning person and who really cares anyway when I run my own business?
Please leave comments if you have trouble sleeping and what you think. Should I continue trying to be like “normal society” or should I proudly wave my flag of sleepy bitch?